Just When You Think You Have Things Under Control…

It’s taken me much longer to get into the groove of the new school year than normal and I’m still  working on it. Unfortunately it has not been a smooth transition when it comes to my eating habits. I have been mostly AIP since Feb of 2014 and have seen many great changes from no more allergies to clearer skin to a much more positive attitude about things, most of the time; all good things. This fall I was starting to feel so good that as my job became more demanding I started feeling like I could take some shortcuts with my food and maybe not be so meticulous about what I eat. I was painfully wrong.

 What I think is so funny is that a year ago if I had been writing about not doing so well with my health I would have talked about having pizza and  ice cream, maybe some beer, I do miss a good beer,  but now when I say I strayed from AIP I still did not stray from Paleo. What I did was start to reintroducing all sorts of food without any rhyme or reason. It started out with making an egg dish for my boys. It was some egg muffins and they looked so good that I had to eat one, or two or four… then I bought sunflower seed butter and started eating it on celery,not just a teaspoon but multiple tablespoons. I would have 2 or 3  glasses a wine instead of one and I made a chicken recipe that called for red pepper flakes, my boys love spicy food so, yup, I added them to the whole recipe not just the part my boys would eat. and this is a dish I make a lot. So now I’m having all sorts of reactions; swollen fingers, itchy patches on my skin and red blotches on my face.I have major  patches of eczema on my neck, my sleep has been off and daily I’m having gut issues. I feel awful! I also have been eating out more and I know no matter how clean, or AIP compliant I try and eat, if I eat in a restaurant there is going to be exposure to things I’m sensitive too. The places I’ve been eating don’t even offer gluten free options.

 Today I hit my low point, I’ve been dealing with a candida overgrowth, or so I think, for about 4 weeks now. It has left me feeling  anxious, tired and unproductive. I’m wondering if it has irritated my eczema? I’m sure it is the result of introducing foods too quickly and being lax on foods I know I can only eat once and a while, my maybe foods.I have been stressed at work and at home and I have been sleeping less as I try to cram more things into my day. I have tried many natural remedies to take care of the candida that I’ve found on the internet; either I’m not patient enough or they are just not working for me. Today I felt so terrible I had to take the day off of work and I made an appointment with my regular doctor. This makes me feel terrible and sort of like a fraud on one hand and like “I’m smart enough to know when I can’t fix it myself” on the other hand. This is a tough place to be in emotionally. But it has given me the motivation to get back to where I was 2 months ago. I felt great, I looked great, I slept great and was getting stuff done!

It’s been a tough 2 months as I felt myself sliding down and let the old “I”ll get serious about this tomorrow” self resurface. But as I reflect on things I know I have learned a lot and feel so “shitty” (sorry there is just no other word for it!) that if I start to feel the slid again someday I know I need to not put off fixing it until tomorrow, I need to fix it today. Putting the extra effort in to feeling great is worth not feeling like this!

16 Days and Counting

I have finished Day 16 of being Grain Free! On Day 9 I wrote a post that I never got around to posting. In that post I talked about how I really didn’t feel too different. Well all that has changed, I feel great! I had lost 2 lbs but as of my last weight in had gained one back but I did have a sugar fill day on Sunday. It’s not my weight as much as my mental state. I have been the type of person that when I get overwhelmed I have a hard time doing anything. It stresses me enough where I can’t prioritize and so nothing gets done. Since Friday (Day  13) you can’t stop me. I’m still not good at prioritizing but where before I would just sit and “figure out what to do next” now I can sit for about 10 minutes and I’m up doing something. I have a mental clarity that I don’t remember having before. I know it sounds a little hokey but that is how I feel. I also feel more optimistic and less stressed about things. It is a great feeling.

 

A Week Down

To be honest I’m not sure when I truly started. I took my first set of pictures on a Saturday and started MyFitnessPal on that Monday, either day I’m very disappointed. I thought the first week I would lose like 3-4 pounds, just the shock of eating less and working out more would freak my body out and I’d be on my way. Well… it didn’t work out the way, I weight the same.  I did drop a pound and gained it back. Why????  I’ve been more active this week than the whole month of May. I’ve been eating purposely, paying attention to calories avoiding food that tempts me. This is where my motivation wants to get up and leave.

Okay, okay, I hear ya!! You have gained muscle and muscle weights more than fat, maybe, maybe, I’m just destine to weight 140 lbs from this point on, ever think of that? Well to prove me or you right I did add taking my measurements yesterday, and that was painful.

As much as I want to give up and go eat four of the delicious rhubarb muffins I made last night I will carry on and look at the one positive  ? I got from tracking my food. I realized I don’t eat very much protein and I eat a lot of carbohydrates. I need to look up what a healthy balance is for my age, gender, weight. If you have a good resource, let me know

Day 2

So according to MyFitnessPal, I was under my calories yesterday, running 5 miles definitely helped with that. I ran yesterday morning and so I had all day to know how many calories I could eat. I have not worked out today so I’m struggling trying not to eat too much. Today is a cross-training day and I picked biking. I hate biking in town but I hate being out in the country by myself so in town it will be. I can’t leave until about 7 because it is too hot, no really. I also will be walking the dogs, there’s another 100 calories.  🙂

Day One

Motivation, how do you obtain it if you have none? I’ve read books and any article I come across and still struggle with staying motivated. Day one has been no exception. The day started out great, after a few cups of coffee and nachos for breakfast I did head out on a 5 mile run. I completed it very slowly but my goal for today was to complete it with out walking.
So where is my lack of motivation showing up? in tracking my food so I started taking pictures of everything I’ve eaten.