Just When You Think You Have Things Under Control…

It’s taken me much longer to get into the groove of the new school year than normal and I’m still  working on it. Unfortunately it has not been a smooth transition when it comes to my eating habits. I have been mostly AIP since Feb of 2014 and have seen many great changes from no more allergies to clearer skin to a much more positive attitude about things, most of the time; all good things. This fall I was starting to feel so good that as my job became more demanding I started feeling like I could take some shortcuts with my food and maybe not be so meticulous about what I eat. I was painfully wrong.

 What I think is so funny is that a year ago if I had been writing about not doing so well with my health I would have talked about having pizza and  ice cream, maybe some beer, I do miss a good beer,  but now when I say I strayed from AIP I still did not stray from Paleo. What I did was start to reintroducing all sorts of food without any rhyme or reason. It started out with making an egg dish for my boys. It was some egg muffins and they looked so good that I had to eat one, or two or four… then I bought sunflower seed butter and started eating it on celery,not just a teaspoon but multiple tablespoons. I would have 2 or 3  glasses a wine instead of one and I made a chicken recipe that called for red pepper flakes, my boys love spicy food so, yup, I added them to the whole recipe not just the part my boys would eat. and this is a dish I make a lot. So now I’m having all sorts of reactions; swollen fingers, itchy patches on my skin and red blotches on my face.I have major  patches of eczema on my neck, my sleep has been off and daily I’m having gut issues. I feel awful! I also have been eating out more and I know no matter how clean, or AIP compliant I try and eat, if I eat in a restaurant there is going to be exposure to things I’m sensitive too. The places I’ve been eating don’t even offer gluten free options.

 Today I hit my low point, I’ve been dealing with a candida overgrowth, or so I think, for about 4 weeks now. It has left me feeling  anxious, tired and unproductive. I’m wondering if it has irritated my eczema? I’m sure it is the result of introducing foods too quickly and being lax on foods I know I can only eat once and a while, my maybe foods.I have been stressed at work and at home and I have been sleeping less as I try to cram more things into my day. I have tried many natural remedies to take care of the candida that I’ve found on the internet; either I’m not patient enough or they are just not working for me. Today I felt so terrible I had to take the day off of work and I made an appointment with my regular doctor. This makes me feel terrible and sort of like a fraud on one hand and like “I’m smart enough to know when I can’t fix it myself” on the other hand. This is a tough place to be in emotionally. But it has given me the motivation to get back to where I was 2 months ago. I felt great, I looked great, I slept great and was getting stuff done!

It’s been a tough 2 months as I felt myself sliding down and let the old “I”ll get serious about this tomorrow” self resurface. But as I reflect on things I know I have learned a lot and feel so “shitty” (sorry there is just no other word for it!) that if I start to feel the slid again someday I know I need to not put off fixing it until tomorrow, I need to fix it today. Putting the extra effort in to feeling great is worth not feeling like this!

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